Bird Underwater
I feel as if I am underwater. My entire head is clouded up with the illness I've been dealing with, and now it's in my ears. So, sound is muffled, which I have to admit I am somewhat enjoying. I can still hear music, but it is easier to tune out sounds I don't want to hear. I am also on a round-about of medications, including a cough syrup that has granted me the best slumber I've had in ages. Sure, it lasted 24 straight hours, but I'll take it.
During the day, however, I am taking non-drowsy Robitussin CF. It kills the cough, the chest congestion, and most of the head congestion...and my appetite. I think the only thing I've ingested today has been water, tea, and the occasional cough drop (particularly useless against the type of cough I have, but they taste good.) I stopped taking them however when I noticed the fine print on the bag: "Excessive use may have a laxative effect". Since it didn't say how many cough drops was "excessive" I stopped at two. Like I said, they weren't helping anyway. It is now quarter-till-five, and I am wondering if I should just eat something for "dinner" on the principle that my body needs food, I think.
The Robitussin, or rather it's appetite quashing effect, makes me feel light and floaty...adding to my already underwater sensation experience. However, emotionally I think I also have a distinctly aquaeous current running through me. I feel cool, clear, but changing. I think at any moment I could go from a friendly, musical fountain to a strong, forceful deluge. I am different today than I was yesterday. Well, obviously so, but in a more universal sense, I feel like a different person. I need to spend a great deal of time right now alone in prayer and meditation, for God's hand is moving over my waters, and I need to find out what direction I am flowing in. Or directions...could be more than one. It's hard for me to tell; my head feels like it's underwater after all. But one thing is crystal clear: it is a blessing to be alone right now. I am not done learning what I am supposed to learn yet.
During the day, however, I am taking non-drowsy Robitussin CF. It kills the cough, the chest congestion, and most of the head congestion...and my appetite. I think the only thing I've ingested today has been water, tea, and the occasional cough drop (particularly useless against the type of cough I have, but they taste good.) I stopped taking them however when I noticed the fine print on the bag: "Excessive use may have a laxative effect". Since it didn't say how many cough drops was "excessive" I stopped at two. Like I said, they weren't helping anyway. It is now quarter-till-five, and I am wondering if I should just eat something for "dinner" on the principle that my body needs food, I think.
The Robitussin, or rather it's appetite quashing effect, makes me feel light and floaty...adding to my already underwater sensation experience. However, emotionally I think I also have a distinctly aquaeous current running through me. I feel cool, clear, but changing. I think at any moment I could go from a friendly, musical fountain to a strong, forceful deluge. I am different today than I was yesterday. Well, obviously so, but in a more universal sense, I feel like a different person. I need to spend a great deal of time right now alone in prayer and meditation, for God's hand is moving over my waters, and I need to find out what direction I am flowing in. Or directions...could be more than one. It's hard for me to tell; my head feels like it's underwater after all. But one thing is crystal clear: it is a blessing to be alone right now. I am not done learning what I am supposed to learn yet.
posted by The Semi-Pro Chef at Monday, February 06, 2006
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