An Inverse Roller-Coaster of Emotions

People say "Oh I'm on an emotional roller coaster" but really that statement is linguistically incorrect. It implies that when people are feeling good, happy, and well, that they are "up". It follows that when people are feeling blue, unhappy, and sad, that they are "down". Therefore, emotions cannot be described as a rollercoaster in this way; everybody knows that the fun, happy part of the coaster is when everyone plunges down and the up part is really slow, plodding, and terrifying. The really unhappy part of the rollercoaster is when it comes to a stop altogether, or perhaps that whole 3 hours you spend waiting on line.

So yes, anyway, I am not on an emotional rollercoaster. I am feeling blue tonight, so I guess that would put me in the rollercoaster-has-stopped category. And crap! That sucks, because I was doing so well and feeling so happy! Damn you, fluctuating body chemicals and emotional reactions to external stimuli! Why must you be so...so...fluctual? Is fluctual even a word? Damn you, emotions, causing me to make up words in my emotional stupor. Fluc you.

And maybe its the rain, or the darkness outside when I leave work, or the fear of the truck not being able to stop as it flys towards the red light, while I cruise tentatively through the green. What if he hits? It's lights-out for me. Then what? I should really put an emergency contact sheet in my wallet; how would the cops know to call my parents? Would they make an announcement at work? Who would take care of my finances, clean out my apartment, would my ashes go in the east or west coasts? Wow, what macabre thoughts. The truck stopped, though he did slide past the crosswalk. I was OK and made it home fine. Amazing what goes through someone's brain within a few fleeting seconds.

So, anyway, its just a fleeting moment I suppose. Just like that moment in the crosswalk. Tomorrow is another day, tomorrow will be a better day. Not that today was particularly bad, because it wasn't. It just wasn't the happiest day I've ever had. They all can't be wonderful.